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Yugioh! ZeXal - You Don't Love Me

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You don't love me..


But you used too... Whatever happened to those times..?.. When we would laugh.. When we would play.. When we were a family... That word.. 'Family'... It floats off my lips like a ghost.... I haven't even thought about that word.. Family..

I weakly collapsed to the ground in defeat of my dear old rival, him standing there along with who claims to be his 'friends'. A boy with an outgoing personality, and a girl who sticks by his side no matter what. So unlike them he is, with that irritated look never leaving and that cold gleam in his eyes that haunts warmth.
I can never help but continuously imagine what he was like before he became this ruthless teenager - a ruthless teenager who had beaten me and evened the score between me and him..

The way he uses his anger... Its what makes me and him so alike in so many ways.. Only he cares for the only flesh and blood he has left.. Maybe he won't fail his sister as I've already failed my baby brother and our older one... What was it like back then..?.. I can hardly remember...

I weakly blink my eyes, struggling to keep them open and force myself up off of the ground yet only to my knees of which I even struggle to stay on.
I can feel the power of my crest beginning to fade, weakening my very being into nothing as though my soul is being drained from me; then again, it basically is. My eyes look up weakly into the cold eyes of an old friend.. If I dare call him a friend..

I failed them.. I was the last chance that my brothers had to bring back our family... And I failed them... There's no excuse for that..

I felt like crying as I looked into the aquatic blue eyes of Reginald Kastle - who's life I had ruined in hopes of gaining back my father's love. He looked so angry, a look of disapproval etched across his features..
Yet there was a sense of triumph that flowed from him like the pity and worry of his two friends by his side.. We never got any of that..

Vetix.. Why?...

(An angelic and excited smile on his face as he stood up on the couch before him, revealing a card in his hand with an innocent light in his eyes, "Father got it just for me!")

Tears built up behind my eyes as I spoke words that remained unheard to me myself, remembering all those times when we were so happy that it almost seemed unreal - it couldn't be real.
I wouldn't dare cry in front of Reginald.. Never.. Perhaps that just shows I'm weak..

(Teasingly did he hold the card above his baby brother's head, just out of reach as he tried to tackle him for it in the garden, "Come on, brother!")

(Chuckles from the two that stood there watching, one of his eldest brother, and one of their father.)

I lost all of sense of what was happening to me as a portal slowly opened underneath me, soon taking me into its sweet embrace particle by particle. The process seemed so slow as I caught a glimpse of a tear upon Reginald's eyelashes, which he refused to let fall and show his weakness.
He didn't care.. It didn't matter..

("Please! Don't let them take us!" Tears fell from the eyes of the two smallest brother, the man pulled them away from the eldest by their arms)

(Blank eyes stared forward, a lifeless shell as he watched his brothers being taken away and leaving him alone and abandoned)

(Tears fell from his eyes as he watched his brother do nothing, his baby brother's whimpering heard constantly by him as they were pulled away)

I helplessly watch as they disappear from my sight, being swallowed in the portal below me as it takes me back to where my brothers are.. To where we will all dwell in endless dreams where - maybe - we can be happier..
Where we can relive a life that may have never truly happened.. It was only a dream..

Maybe, father.. We could forgive you for all that happened... For never loving us when you returned and giving us orders... Acting as your puppets simply to gain back your love and care... To wake up from this nightmare...
But maybe that's impossible.... To forgive and forget is one thing.... To let go is another... And we can't.... Can we?...

Darkness...

("You have to believe me, Shark, I never meant to hurt her!")

Did I?...

("It doesn't matter what happens to you..")

Of course it doesn't....


("Thomas..")

That name...



It's his name...



No..





My name..






But it was only a dream....


Or was it?...



(Smiles crossed all of their faces as the camera flashed, the middle child hugging their dog lovingly as he cuddled with his fur)

(Innocence in those green eyes as he leaned against his father)

(A soft smile as he placed a hand on his father's shoulder with his legs crossed)

(Their father there in the middle with his arms around them all)



Vetrix...





Byron...





Father....
















You don't love me..


..But you used too....





..I wanted to say thank you for that..
Family is one of the most important things there is on this planet.. It dwells around us, caressing us with its soothing embrace.. Anything can be a family to anyone.... But there is no family that is perfect..
There is no family that doesn't have its flaws.. Families are made.. Born.. Torn apart.. Broken... Sometimes, family isn't forever.. Sometimes, family is just like everything else..
It goes.. And it dies..

What does anyone really know about family?.. How many secrets do you keep from them behind that smile... How many lies have you told to them... How many times have we all looked them in the eye with that false smile and fake innocence and said: 'I'm fine'...
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"Everybody's family has problems." - Greg Kinnear
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Sssooo.... Its 1:00 in the morning and this kind of happened.. I don't know what happened in the last 20 minutes, but it has something to do with with me and Quattro both having middle child problems..

Have you called the therapist yet?..
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Whoops, I think my heart just died.